Anger

I have never felt like this before, not in my entire life.
About 20 minutes ago I felt like the most powerful man on earth, but I also felt like the opposite.
I completely lost myself.
I was arguing at the dinner table with my brother and my mom, and my brother - stubborn as he is - became unreasonably selfish again. Instead of letting it go as usual and burying all the anger in a place deep inside me, it suddenly all came free. Everything became blurry, I couldn't hear anything except for a high pitched beeping noise, and what I felt was... indescribable. Pure, concentrated hatred. In less than a split second I had come up with 3 different possible ways of killing my brother at that exact moment. It wasn't until I saw my mother furiously yelling at me (yes saw, not hear) that I noticed I had crushed my sandwich to crumbs.
Then I started yelling. I never yell. I couldn't believe I was doing this, it was as if I was watching someone else. I didn't even recognize my voice, it was quite scary. I ended up eating my crumbs in the next room as I had ran off mad. Again something I never do.
It might seem weird, but that actually made me feel good. People who know me know that I never get angry, but now that I have felt like this... I suddenly feel so
light
However, in this world, in this life, I have no interest in turning to the Dark Side. You get thrown in jail for killing people, and people just don't like being yelled at.

I guess we'll just have to forget this ever happened.

-- Mors vitam est